Monday, April 11, 2005

Alone again

So Jason left this morning and I'm feeling a little blue. The wind is blowing like crazy outside and there is no sunshine so it is just an icky day.

Kieran is very sweet but is driving me crazy today. He is out of school for yet another teacher's workshop day or something like that. So he's bored out of his gourd and is constantly asking if he can A. play gamecube/ computer or B. eat. If it were nice outside I'd say "get your butt outside" but alas, the weather is awful.

Chloe is napping and there are chores to do but I just can't care right now. The bed will eventually get made and the dishes will get done, sometime later. I just want to complain and feel sorry for myself for a few minutes longer...

I did get to the gym earlier and I'm glad I worked out. I needed to get some negative energy out of me. I feel a little better at least. I burned over 450 calories on the elliptical while I read my book, "My sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult. It is a fabulous book and I highly reccomend it but it is depressing. It is about a teenager's sister who is dying of leukemia and the main character was born to save her, literally. She was genetically engineered. But the main character doesn't want to go through any more transplants or the like anymore. She wants the rights to her own body. Very interesting, very difficult subject matter. I've welled up with tears on the elliptical many times imagining if it were my child with cancer. Ugh... I get a pit in my stomach just thinking about it. To think that I felt so sorry for myself having a child with a minor birth defect like Chloe's. What a gut check. Life could be so much worse, couldn't it.

Hopefully the sun will reappear tomorrow, just so we could take a walk around the block again.

2 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Well, if it makes you feel better, we had a mad crazy hail storm for about 10 minutes, it stopped, sun came out for 20 seconds, rained and is now just plain gloomy.

Hehe, but it's funny watching the sales people have to go out into it. Especially Stephanie. Since the minute it started hailing she changed her mind about going on a sales call.

Rice Patty

4:28 PM  
Blogger Memere Kitty said...

I agree with you about Chloe. Every time I think back on all the things the doctors said could be wrong with her, I feel truly blessed!

9:53 PM  

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