Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Three days to go....

It isn't long now. I'll be running and freezing soon. I ran last night at the gym and every step was difficult. I think it is my inane ability to sabotage myself. I always do this. I get really close to reaching a goal and I start to self destruct. But it ain't happening. I'm my own worst enemy and I'm going down! That really doesn't make sense, does it?

I ran on Sunday with Carrie at a local park. It was a 3.5 mile loop. It started out difficult, I had a hard time adjusting to the cold temp. combined with the hilly trail. I felt like I had asthma for the first 10 min. because my chest was so heavy and I struggled for a deep breath. It was weird. I finally got with it after that then the terrain got nasty. They stopped grooming the trail after the first mile so we had to run in 2 inches of snow and slush. It was awful. My shoes, socks and the bottom of my pants were soaked, not to mention freezing. I complained and whined but Carrie just kept on truckin'. I told her at one point that I was going to walk because I was so worried about slipping but she just ignored me, which was a good thing. I kept running after her and before I knew it, the 3.5 miles were done. What an awesome feeling!

We took a long time to do it but we did it. I feel like I really slow her down but she's willing to wait for me. She says "we finish together or we don't finish at all." Awww, what a great partner I have. She does a good job playing the role of the angel on my right shoulder while the nasty little devil (looking alot like me) is on the left. Converse tennis shoes, black lip stick and a Motley Crue t-shirt is how I imagine the lil' devil looks. A former version of yours truly - nasty attitude and all.

My life isn't all about running. It is just a little part of the chaos. I'm down almost 40 lbs. since I moved here and I feel it a little. I definitely feel more muscle where the fat once was. Now if I could tap into those hearty fat reserves, way beneath the muscle. That would be nice. I've got a way to go but I'm up for it. My goal is to be 30 lbs. lighter by my 32nd birthday. So I need to lose 10 lbs. a month for the next 3 months. December doesn't count. I'll try my best to survive the holidaze (if you catch my drift) but food and drinks just seem to jump down my throat during December. My only hope to keep from gaining is to stay on the current workout/running program. So I think I'll find a 10K to start training for to keep me on track.

I watched the Biggest Loser finale last night. What an awesome show! Suzy should've won. I just adore her. What an amazing chick she is. What is so cool about it is I can really see myself in many of the people on that show. By the end they show all the flashbacks to when they started and it is so surreal. It helps those of us who are still pudgy see a peek into what we might look like after a weightloss. You see more of a face - not so much pudge. You see more of a normal physique, not just fluff. It is a very cool transformation. I also like that they push the idea that these people did it the right way. No surgery, no pills none of that crap. They work really friggin' hard and that is reality. It happens really fast because they live on a ranch in a controlled environment which isn't like real life but it gives you a taste of how you can do it. I love that. It is much closer to reality than The Swan or some other crappy show like that.

It is snowing today and I would just love to sit inside and sip on my coffee all day. But I think I'll take Chloe to play at a local gym - not Lifetime. It is a gym where they teach gymnastics. I'd like to try something new with her. I'd like to stay away from Lifetime today. Between working and working out there, I feel like we live there sometimes! Jason and I are going to a Minnesota Wild hockey game tonight which is a treat. He got free tickets from a client - just a little perk of the job :) It will be our first "date" since our anniversary in June. Yikes. That is sad, I know.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow! Down 40 pounds since you've moved there?! I'm so proud of you Ash! Great photo of you and Sausage Boy. I think he even smiled - kinda. I'm sorry I didn't follow " . . . Biggest Loser", but I did get totally enveloped in VH1's "Celebrity Fit Club." Maybe Wendy needs a colonic of Snapple. Maybe Gary Busey needs a good SSRI with a long half life. And maybe Willie Ames should try for a cameo on "My Fair Brady." Much love from your tv girl who still thinks of you from the wet and soggy Pacific Northwest.

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