Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Three days to go....

It isn't long now. I'll be running and freezing soon. I ran last night at the gym and every step was difficult. I think it is my inane ability to sabotage myself. I always do this. I get really close to reaching a goal and I start to self destruct. But it ain't happening. I'm my own worst enemy and I'm going down! That really doesn't make sense, does it?

I ran on Sunday with Carrie at a local park. It was a 3.5 mile loop. It started out difficult, I had a hard time adjusting to the cold temp. combined with the hilly trail. I felt like I had asthma for the first 10 min. because my chest was so heavy and I struggled for a deep breath. It was weird. I finally got with it after that then the terrain got nasty. They stopped grooming the trail after the first mile so we had to run in 2 inches of snow and slush. It was awful. My shoes, socks and the bottom of my pants were soaked, not to mention freezing. I complained and whined but Carrie just kept on truckin'. I told her at one point that I was going to walk because I was so worried about slipping but she just ignored me, which was a good thing. I kept running after her and before I knew it, the 3.5 miles were done. What an awesome feeling!

We took a long time to do it but we did it. I feel like I really slow her down but she's willing to wait for me. She says "we finish together or we don't finish at all." Awww, what a great partner I have. She does a good job playing the role of the angel on my right shoulder while the nasty little devil (looking alot like me) is on the left. Converse tennis shoes, black lip stick and a Motley Crue t-shirt is how I imagine the lil' devil looks. A former version of yours truly - nasty attitude and all.

My life isn't all about running. It is just a little part of the chaos. I'm down almost 40 lbs. since I moved here and I feel it a little. I definitely feel more muscle where the fat once was. Now if I could tap into those hearty fat reserves, way beneath the muscle. That would be nice. I've got a way to go but I'm up for it. My goal is to be 30 lbs. lighter by my 32nd birthday. So I need to lose 10 lbs. a month for the next 3 months. December doesn't count. I'll try my best to survive the holidaze (if you catch my drift) but food and drinks just seem to jump down my throat during December. My only hope to keep from gaining is to stay on the current workout/running program. So I think I'll find a 10K to start training for to keep me on track.

I watched the Biggest Loser finale last night. What an awesome show! Suzy should've won. I just adore her. What an amazing chick she is. What is so cool about it is I can really see myself in many of the people on that show. By the end they show all the flashbacks to when they started and it is so surreal. It helps those of us who are still pudgy see a peek into what we might look like after a weightloss. You see more of a face - not so much pudge. You see more of a normal physique, not just fluff. It is a very cool transformation. I also like that they push the idea that these people did it the right way. No surgery, no pills none of that crap. They work really friggin' hard and that is reality. It happens really fast because they live on a ranch in a controlled environment which isn't like real life but it gives you a taste of how you can do it. I love that. It is much closer to reality than The Swan or some other crappy show like that.

It is snowing today and I would just love to sit inside and sip on my coffee all day. But I think I'll take Chloe to play at a local gym - not Lifetime. It is a gym where they teach gymnastics. I'd like to try something new with her. I'd like to stay away from Lifetime today. Between working and working out there, I feel like we live there sometimes! Jason and I are going to a Minnesota Wild hockey game tonight which is a treat. He got free tickets from a client - just a little perk of the job :) It will be our first "date" since our anniversary in June. Yikes. That is sad, I know.

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Happy Thanksgiving!

We had a very simple turkey day today. We worked out before the gym closed, then came home and prepared dinner. We didn't need a whole turkey (thank goodness) so I just cooked a few turkey legs for Jason. We had way too many side dishes but that is the best part, in my opinion. We've got many leftovers so I don't have to cook for a few days. Hooray!

Chloe gave her mommy the gift of a 3 hour nap today so I did all of the cooking during that time. She woke up just in time for dinner and she surprised us by eating several green beans. Wow! She didn't eat much else and Kieran loves the idea of Thanksgiving, not the food... so you can imagine the leftovers with only Jason and I eating.

Chloe called Daddy's crappy canned cranberry sauce "pizza" and it was very cute. She was nice enough to wipe her dirty hands in her hair after dinner so that is why her hair looks so fabulous. Kieran just needs a haircut.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

13 days to go....

until the 5K. So today I ran outside for the first time and wow, what a difference! It was so nice to have things to look at. I got to watch the sunset over the pond which was a really beautiful bright pink. I also saw many geese and ducks swimming as well as several dogs going for their evening walk. It helped occupy my mind. The little mini-hills didn't even bother me and I thought they would kill me. So I was surprised.

I did just under 4 miles in 45 min. I forgot my stopwatch so I don't have the exact time. Next time I will worry more about time now that I know it can be done outside.

I'm really getting excited now!

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Kieran's 7th Birthday Party

Mr. Kieran is turning 7 next Friday, the 25th but being a Turkey Day baby is hard when you want to have all your friends at your party. So we celebrated today at Lifetime with Jedi Training, pizza, cake & ice cream, presents and swimming. We had 12 guests plus 3 adult guests and a busy little co-dependent 18 month old who couldn't leave mommy's side. We're exhausted but a good time was had by all.

A huge thank you to all of Kieran's pals who came and thank you for the cool presents.

A special thank you to our fabulous friends and neighbors, the Guggemos family. Stephanie made an awesome cake that impressed Kieran and his buddies. Thank you for helping with crowd control, junk transportation and Chloe patrol. You guys are the best!


Thursday, November 17, 2005

It must seem silly to post my "accomplishments" with running since Jason just finished a friggin' marathon, eh. Oh well, to me this is a marathon, of sorts. The fact that I'm doing it is a miracle and I have to pinch myself to make sure I'm not dreaming all of this.

My latest achievement is that I ran 3 miles for the first time last night. I did it even though I didn't even think I'd be running yesterday due to a weird twist of a muscle that happened when I slipped on some ice earlier that day. I had just told my running buddy an hour or so before that I was going to sit the night out in hopes that I woulndn't further aggravate the injury. Then I went to the couch eager to catch up on my TiVo recordings when I suddenly realized that I had to go. I couldn't bear the thought of missing a running day. Wow, who is this person??

Oh, more on my buddy....
I've recruited a running buddy who runs a bit faster than I do and can certainly go farther. Her name is Carrie and is just perfect for me as an exercise buddy. She can understand my breathy mindless chatter (while we run), she high fives me when I point out an accomplishment and she is ALWAYS in a good mood. I will whine, bitch and complain and she just smiles at me and says "I'm so glad your here, Ash". Sigh. I'm lucky that she puts up with me.

I'm off to the gym, once again. Kieran has swimming lessons and I need to do 30 min. on the elliptical. Is it so weird that I look forward to the gym? I know, yes it is.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

More on running

I did it! I finished the training. It was an accident actually. I skipped the week where I was to run 28 min 3X in a week. I jumped from 25 min to 30 min and it was rough, but I'm glad I just went ahead and did it. My time is slow so I plan on bumping it up to 32 or 35 min next week and then I'll increase my speed the following week. Hopefully I can finish this 5K within an hour. LOL Actually, I'm thinking 35 min is my goal.

Here are some fun Halloween photos of us and the neighbors.